It is Well

Throughout the life of this blog, I've gone through spells of blogging frequently about anything from my faith in God to my latest project or family adventure.  Then there are periods of time when I feel more like just living life and not trying to capture it in words.  But one thing is consistent....when God puts something on my heart he wants me to share, I try to do it.

I do it for me.....because putting words to my thoughts brings clarity and peace of mind for me.  But I also do it because I have learned over the years that often my words have helped someone else in some way in their time of need.  More importantly than anything, when God moves my heart, I want to be obedient to share what He's showing me or teaching me.

Yesterday was one of those days.

It's been a rough few weeks for me and my family.  Our troubles have been nothing compared to so many others, but nevertheless, we found ourselves tempted to worry, asking lots of questions, and feeling somewhat overwhelmed.

For me, it's been a stressful few weeks with my work.  Thankfully, it's not always that way, but coupled with some other events, I found myself giving in to anxiety and fear.

Scott works for the railroad and we were dealt a blow there last week as well.  As a result of our struggling economy, there have been changes in the company that have required alot of layoffs over the last year or so.  Scott has been blessed to survive all of that, but they have now made some changes with his position that affects his work schedule as well as the extra money he was making from an expense job.

Thankfully that extra money was not included in our regular budget, but it will affect us in other ways.  But what's worse to me is that he will no longer work only four days per week.  I don't work on Fridays and for so long now, we have loved having our Fridays off together to enjoy around the house or on long weekend trips out of town.  I don't mean to whine or sound ungrateful, because we truly are thankful for his job and know that we will make the adjustment.....it's just a downer right now.

Over the last few weeks, we are also seeing so many people we love hurt and suffer.  I won't get into those details, but I'm sure you can relate.  And it seems like this whole world has gone crazy.  We turn on the news every day and hear of more terrorists attacks or shootings...even right here in America.  It's so heart breaking and it seems like all hope is lost.

To top it all off, I got a call from Dillan Tuesday around 1:30 pm.  He had been in a wreck in Marietta.  Needless to say, I made the long trip up there to make sure he was really ok and to help with everything involved with that.  We're so grateful to God for protecting Dillan.  His car may have been totaled, but he only suffered a little whip lash from the impact.

I'm going to be honest here and tell you that I suggested to Scott Saturday night that we stay home from church Sunday.  He originally was supposed to work anyway, but plans changed at the last minute.  It was partly because I was tired, but also because I just wanted to stay home and avoid the world.  I wanted to keep him all to myself and relish our last long weekend at home together before his new work schedule this week.

I wanted to piddle around the house and finish some little projects. I wanted to feather my nest....my haven....my safe place from the world.

But we didn't stay home. We went to church as we should and I am so thankful!  I would have missed out on such a huge blessing and hearing God speak to me if we had not gone.  The message was right on point for me and so relevant for my family during this time.  And as we worshiped, my heart was filled with so much thankfulness for what Christ has done for me.....through the years and through the last few weeks.

As we sang the lyrics to "It is Well" (Bethel Music), the tears started flowing......

Far be it from me to not believe
Even when my eyes can't see
And this mountain that's in front of me
Will be thrown into the midst of the sea

Through it all, through it all
My eyes are on You
Through it all, through it all
It is well

So let go my soul and trust in Him
The waves and wind still know His name 

It is well with my soul
It is well with my soul
It is well with my soul
It is well with my soul

You can here it here:

Just reading these lyrics may not touch your heart, but as I sang those words, God reminded me that He is there through it all.  He protected my son from physical harm.  He has protected Scott on the job site.  He sees everything that has concerned me, confused me, and frightened me over the last few weeks.  But He also sees what is ahead.  I know I can trust in Him for He has proven to me over and over again through the years that He is faithful.

Perhaps these storms are a reminder that we were getting too comfortable, depending on ourselves and not Him.  Perhaps these storms are about to provide the refreshing rain we need to restore our souls. This world can leave us battered and bruised and weary from the journey, but on the other side of the storm is a calm and peace.  The waves and wind still know His name and He is in complete control.  Not me.  Not my family.  

I have a calm resolve now that we will look ahead and find Him in the most intimate of ways on the other side of these trials.  I know that it's always darkest before the dawn, but He is there in the darkness to light the way.  "And this mountain that's in front of me, will be thrown into the midst of the sea".


Dr. Carpenter said...

Prayers and Hugs as you you face challenges and change. We don't always know what we will face in life but we do know that the love of our Heavenly Father is always there to carry us through the trails.

Lynn Langford said...

Thanks, Dr. Carpenter. You're so right. I don't know how people survive in this world without Him!