5/27/14

Hang on to your HOPE


It seems to always take me by surprise.  Life can be going great and then I get that sinking feeling again all out of the blue.  Doubt starts creeping in and I find myself feeling like I'm about to lose my new found hope.  It leaves me with twinges of pain in my chest and eyes that threaten to spill over with tears much too easily.

Unfortunately, this feeling is not new to me.  I've become well acquainted with it over the years.  But it still shows up when I least expect it.  It showed its ugly face this morning.  I was on my way to work listening to Crowder's "Come as You Are":
Come out of sadness 
From wherever you’ve been
Come broken hearted
Let rescue begin
Come find your mercy
Oh sinner come kneel
Earth has no sorrow
That heaven can’t heal....

I love the words to that song.  Christ invites us to come to Him just as we are - full of sadness and sorrows, hurts and frustrations.  He longs to heal us and remind us of the hope we have in Him.

I'm doing alot of listening these days.  Listening for that still, small voice of His Spirit as He guides me into this next chapter of my life.  The more I seek His face, the more I feel His heart and long to completely understand His Word and His will for my life.  It has to be His way and not mine if it is to bring the peace and fulfillment I desperately seek.

But seeking God does not come without frustrations.  I have a tendency to get ahead of Him.  I have at times given new meaning to putting "feet to my prayers" and have run too far ahead only to end up frustrated and defeated.  I am not blessed with the gift of patience.  I have to constantly work at it.

At the moment, I feel as though I'm standing in a hallway, waiting to see which door will open for me. Recently, He allowed me to take a peek inside of one door, but He is still preparing me to walk through it.  It's not quite time, but it will be soon.  I need this time to prepare, to quiet my soul and rest from the stresses and trials of the last few years.  But as I wait, I find that worry works its way into where I am.

That worry leads to fear that then leads to many reminders of past mistakes.  I fear being stuck in the monotony of life.  I have a fear of never accomplishing all that God has so richly planned for me to do.  I have a fear that I will never fulfill the calling God has placed upon my life.

Those fears lead to hopelessness and doubt and I know they are not from God.  They are from the enemy. Satan delights in attacking those who have turned their faces toward the heavens and are diligently and faithfully seeking God's will for their lives.

When we live in His will, we find peace and contentment.  Our lives have meaning and purpose and we are able to bloom in that special place where He has so generously planted us.  In that place, we are able to cast off the feelings of failure and doubt and allow Him to quench our thirsty souls.  In that place, we are not a failure, but a work in progress.

So I'm hanging onto the hope that I know is mine through Christ.  It's that hope in Christ that encourages me to keep pressing on.  I am safe with Him and I can trust Him to see me through my doubts and my fears.  He will make a way when there seems to be no way.  He will open doors that mere man cannot even see within the walls that confine me each day.

I'm making a choice to hang on to the promises in God's Word, and as I do, I will be hanging on to the hope that cannot fail me.

I'm sharing this at Imparting Grace 

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