Dream Your Dream

Have you ever had a dream that never went away.....a dream that never died?  If so, know that you are not alone.  In 2003, I started chasing a dream.....a dream that still hasn't come to fruition. 

I've learned over the years that God is the THE DREAM GIVER.  If you've never read it, I highly recommend the book The Dream Giver by Bruce Wilkinson.  My brother-in-law, Chuck gave it to me to read years ago when my dream was new and fresh on my mind.  The book gives its readers practical, biblical keys to fulfilling their own dream, revealing that there is no limit to what God can accomplish when we choose to pursue the dreams He gives us for His honor. 

Does your Big Dream seem hopelessly out of reach?  Mine does.  Are you waiting for something or someone to make your dream happen?  I have.....for 9 long years!

I've jumped out of the boat a couple of times, only to swim back to safety.  I've made excuses.  I've rationalized.  I've allowed Satan to discourage me and talk me into giving up.  But through it all, the dream is still alive!

That's how I know in my heart that it is real.  I didn't pretend it or hear the wrong word from the Lord.  He did speak to me!  My timing was perhaps wrong.  Maybe I needed to experience something else or get to a point in my life when I'd have more time to devote to my dream without the distractions that come along with having smaller children.  Regardless, I do know that our passions and our calling are directly related to our purpose on this earth.

You see, I don't believe God wastes our hurts and tears.  If he allowed us to go through something and even make wrong choices for our lives, it was because He knew what He could do with our brokenness.  He wants to use us to help others in similar circumstances. 

I don't have all the answers. I'm really not sure of what step to take next.  But I hear Him speaking to me alot lately. Over the years, I've cried to Him and begged Him to remove me from certain circumstances and situations.  He answered my prayers by leaving me there to grow.  I've also prayed and asked Him to take the dream away if it was not real.....he obviously didn't because my heart still hurts for what I want so desperately in my spirit.

He's told me to wait time and time again when I've begged Him to go ahead and put me in that perfect ministry opportunity  - the place where I can live out my calling in freedom.  The place where I can truly make a difference for Him.  The place that will cause me to awake and want to go.....will hear calling to me even in my sleep.

I don't know why I've had to wait so long.  Perhaps it was to allow me to complete the educational training I would need.  Perhaps to move me back to my old stomping grounds - the place where it all went wrong.

I'm so ready now, Lord.  When I'm still and quiet long enough, I can still feel my heart break for those you've called me to minister to.  I'm ready for that next big step, to jump out of the boat again.......but I want your will, not mine.  You know what's best for me for you've proven that to me time and time again....thank you for that.  Thank you for saving me.  Thank you for creating me for a divine purpose.  I feel in my spirit that you are about to move.  Maybe not in the way I think...but you will definitely move me in the direction I must go.  Guide my steps, Lord.  Lead me to where I can serve you best.  Only then will my dream become reality.

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