6/17/10

I Once Was Blind

(published in Cordele Dispatch 6/17/10)
A couple of months ago, my family’s beloved little Shih Tzu, Lucy, had an accident that resulted in her having two eye surgeries. Despite the best vet care available, she lost one of her eyes and has basically been blind in the other eye. Needless to say, we were devastated having to watch her go through such a horrible ordeal. Our spunky, prissy little ball of chocolate and white fur became afraid and even seemed depressed. We would take her with us from room to room if we were going to be away from her for any length of time. We would put her in the middle of the room we were in to keep her from running into things. When she tired of lying there, she would stand up and turn around in circles, not knowing which way to go. Early on, she would give up quickly and hang her head in discouragement. Seeing her like this broke our hearts. She wanted to be held constantly and whined quite often. It was like having a toddler in the house. We had to watch her every move in order to protect her from further danger. We established a new normal in our home very quickly. We continued to do all we could for her medically and hoped for the best. She eventually would venture out, making her circles wider and wider. We watched in amazement as she became less afraid and would make attempts to walk to us.

A couple of weeks ago, I received a text from my son that Lucy was acting like her “old self” and that she could actually see. I was afraid to get my hopes up, but when I arrived home, I saw for myself that she could actually see. Granted, she may not have the eyesight that she had before, but something is better than nothing. We are so excited now as we watch her run from room to room and play with her toys. I love to see her looking out the window at the birds and squirrels in the yard.

I know she is just a dog, but this was a very trying time for us because we see her as part of our family. As always, I try to see God in the “everyday” circumstances of life and I’ve wondered about what He has been trying to show us through all of this. As I thought about this the other day, I felt Him speak to my heart and remind me of some darker days in my past as well. Though I’ve never actually been blind in eyesight, I have had times in my past when I was spiritually blind and lost my way – times of deep depression and discouragement. During those times, I wanted to give up as I held my head in discouragement and shame, but Jesus would not let me. Just as we held our little Lucy in our arms and comforted her in such a painful time, Jesus held me and comforted me. As He persuaded me to get back on my feet and keep pressing on, I stepped out in faith and leaned on Him. I was only able to take baby steps at first, but before long my circle of existence widened a little more. Over time, I received much needed spiritual healing and was able to do more than take baby steps – I could run without fear. Although I am sometimes reminded of those dark days, I’m able to trust in Jesus to be my eyes and give me the direction that He wants for me to go in. I still hold scars from that time, but I see those scars as reminders that encourage me in my walk with Christ.

If you’re going through a difficult time in your life right now and don’t know which direction to go in, take heart! Let Jesus be your eyes and allow Him to guide you down your path in life. He will help you to see things clearly as you trust in Him. One of my favorite Bible verses is Isaiah 40:31 (NKJV): “But those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint”. Take comfort in His words today.

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