7/20/09

How Jesus Became My BFF

I was saved at an early age. I knew who Jesus was, knew scripture, and what is expected of a Christian. I thank God every day that He put me in a family that knew Him and provided the foundation for my belief in God.But only after years of heartache and pain did I truly seek His face and his guidance - and it makes all the difference in the world!
From the moment I entered high school, I decided to walk a different road - a road that would take me to a place I didn't want to be. A place of doubt, worry, insecurity, heartache, and defeat. I spent years traveling this road - only at brief times stopping to think about what I was doing. I knew better, but didn't seem to have the strength to change my course. As the old Elvis song goes, "I did it my way!" But my way was wrong. My way was not the best way. Only when I was too tired to go on and fell on my face in despair did I truly look Jesus in the face. And what an awesome day that was - a turning point in my journey that brought me to the place I longed for all along. A place of peace, a place of comfort and contentment. A place of joy that surpasses all understanding.
As I look back on the journey, I can see the ways that God protected me. Reality is.... I should not be alive. I can see Him watching me make the mistakes that my free will allowed me to make - only to have Him alter my course for my own good. I see Him blessing me in spite of myself. Besides Salvation, my most precious gift was that of my son. Becoming a mother does something to you - you become less selfish and focus on your unconditional love for that child. That unconditional love helps you to see the love the Father has for us.
The day I called out to God in despair will always be fresh in my mind. That's the day He became my best friend. Through sobs of tears and a broken heart, I asked Him "Why?" (referring to my last divorce to which I share blame). He plainly said to me, "I never told you to marry them." Yet His words were not of condemnation, but of comfort and support. I knew at that moment that I had to quit doing things my way and do what Jesus would want me to do. And what a difference it makes! While striving to be in God's will does not exempt you from pain and trials, it makes a huge difference when you can hear His voice guiding you each day. Sometimes I get busy and ignore Him, but it doesn't take long to remember what I need to do. That's because I try to study His Word and talk with Him more each day. I surround myself with other believers by attending church and participating in ministry.
I'll have to make myself stop now....... I could go on and on. I just wanted to encourage anyone out there who may be in the same situation I was in. Jesus wants to be your BFF too! He wants to bless you beyond your wildest dreams! If you continue to run from Him, you'll never be able to fill that void in your life - that part that seems to be missing. That's because you were created to have a relationship with your Heavenly Father. Call out to Him in times of trouble. Praise Him in good times and bad. He'll cry with you and laugh with you - He'll laugh AT you! Isn't that what best friends are for?

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